I ran out
in the
rain today
and spun in
circles
a few hundred times
until I fell
onto the wet grass
and cried.

Asexuality.

I don't like boy parts.
I think they are icky.

I don't like girl parts.
I think they are icky.

Both make my head dizzy
and my stomach sick.

Why couldn't
we have evolved into an
Asexual-type
of breed?

Then no one would have
icky parts,
and the human race
could still continue to exist,

and I wouldn't be
scared
of anyone.

Soiled.
Sticky.
Squalid.
Tainted.
Scummy.
Stained.
Contaminated.

Dirty.

I'd rather be sitting at home
than going out anywhere.
I'm always socially awkward.

Outcast.

In a room full of people that are
broken off into cliques/groups
all laughing
and
having a good time
while I sit,
quietly,
in a corner
of a crowded room
by myself.

People who walk by
don't even care to acknowledge my existence.

I don't exist.

At least if I'm sitting home alone,
I'm not reminded
of how lonely
I really am.

New Eyes.

My new pair of circle lenses came in the mail today.

Yay!

Now I have new eyes.

Too bad they can't see anything new.

They can't see anything new at all.

My eyes just see the same

old goddamn thing everyday.

Sometimes I wish I'd go blind.

Or literally get a pair of new eyes.

Cold Feet.

I got my toes done today,

for the first time.

It was really pleasant, 

and I think I'll do this more often.

I like the way they came out.
Too bad I have freaky toes
and cold feet.

Hi.

I don't know if I'll choose to be anonymous or not on this blog.
Who knows.

I currently can't sleep.
I just want somewhere to put my thoughts
cause they're eating my insides.

Maybe I'll become hollow
and all that will be left is skin and broken bones.
I could be a doll.